Christmas was great. Me and Christmas have issues sometimes. I know that it is to celebrate christs birth and I love Jesus but to me Christmas in America is not at all about Christ and I am a part of that trend that excludes Jesus from his own bday party. I just always feel like it is wrong because it completely contradicts what Jesus would want. Consumerism is not what Jesus would want. Greed is not what Jesus would want. I mean sure, there are many people that are not this way but as a whole I think Christmas has become something distorted. Plus, the pagan roots surrounding the holiday are hard for me to ignore. So I am to a point where I just want to celebrate Christmas without making it religious and making a point to have a day of reflection of Jesus birthday. I mean if it were me, I wouldn't want people celebrating my birthday this way. I worked retail as a part of a friends and family thing this holiday season and probably 90% of people used a CREDIT card to pay. I hate that. Nobody should have to charge gifts for Christmas. This bothers me. I don't want someone to go into debt to buy me a gift. Well anyway once I make Christmas just a holiday I can relax about it even though the greed, consumerism, and debt makes me INSANE! I dont mean to cut Christ out of Christmas but I just dont feel like it is the respect Christ deserves. I think if we really think about what Christ would want for His birthday (which supposedly was no where near Dec. 25) is for us to be His faithful servants willing to serve where we are needed. So maybe instead of wondering what I am getting next or if I got as much in gifts as so and so I should be focused on serving others. I just feel so lazy because I never follow through on these feelings. I've spent a few years having a lot of dislike for Christmas because of these feelings. I sit here thinking that I am sounding really really judgmental but really I dont think that I have any right to dole out advice on others this is a personal struggle inside of me. It is what I need to do. It is about what is going on with my soul and my personal convictions.
So on the note of gifts...my birthday is in a few days and I am so excited because I am getting a Nook! I have been thinking about getting one for awhile because of my trip to China. I really wanted something to put in my carry on that was light instead of a million books. So I am excited! yay! I can't believe that I will be 27! I am getting old too fast! haha.
So I have a few new years resolutions this year. A lot of people say that they don't do resolutions but I always do. I LOVE to have goals. I like to make lists. I want to be better. I enjoy making resolutions.
1. to seek God. (I've got to get better at spending time with Him) I really feel like I am right at the edge of God using me to do something for Him but I keep being too lazy to ever do it. I want that to change.
2. Work out and lose the last 17 pounds I have. this is obvious. haha.
3. Read 40 books(in addition to Bible reading and study). That may not sound like a lot but I only read when Claire is asleep so I dont have a lot of time so that is a little less that a book a week.
4. Save a set amount (that Mike and I have already agreed on) for our adoption.
5. fix our AC with cash
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